I'm a 17 year old girl. I was sexually abused over a few years. It all started when I was 7 years old and didn't stop until I was 13 years old. Well at least I thought it had stopped but it hadn't. A few months ago (last April) I was abused again. Two nights in a row. I froze. I was horrified and didn't know what to do. I just let him do everything. A month or two later the truth came out. I told my teacher I wanted help for a friend but he eventually guessed it was me. A lot of people got involved. I didn't like how things went. People lied to me. Even the professionals that were helping out and they never even bothered checking up on me again. That's probably why up until now I havent been able to get the help that I need. I have a guidance counsellor I speak to but she can't do much. She has given me referrals and out of all of them only one was free. My parents haven't supported me much. They made me recant. So this person still walks around freely and lives really close to me so every time I step out of the house I am really scared. It is really hard without your family supporting you. I am trying to get this through this on my own. My guidance counsellor gave me this book Invisible Girls which is how I came across this site. I just started reading it and I have to read it in pieces because it gets really hard emotionally. I really hope that one day I will be able to get over these feelings. I have similar questions to what I have seen in the book. "Why did he do it?" I wish someone could answer this. I really do. I don't know what I need to heal but I wish someone could tell me. I wish someone could set things right for me. Up until today I am struggling with this and I really do not want it to take away my whole life.